Way To Be Productions Presents...

So you say it's not okay to be gay? Well I think you're just evil. You're just some racist who can't tie my laces. Your point of view is medieval.

It seems to me like gays might as well find themselves their own country at this point. I mean, America clearly doesn't want anything to do with them. Arkansas, Georgia, Kentucky, Michigan, Mississippi, Montana, North Dakota, Ohio, Oklahoma, Oregon, Utah, California, and now Maine have all banned gay marriage as of today. California and Maine are especially disheartening because they had legalized gay marriage in the books and people were so uncomfortable with it that they rallied and petitioned and voted to strike it out of the law.
Today is the one year anniversary of Prop 8 passing in California, and it's one day after Prop 1 passed in Maine. Both measures effectively made gay people marrying eachother against the law. I was disgusted with Prop 8 a year ago, and thought it was a completely stupid and offensive law that should've never even been on a voting ballot in the first place. I didn't know then, and I still don't know now, who these people who pushed for these laws and voted for them think they are...I mean, honestly, we're talking about people's livelihood here, and you're standing in the way of it? It doesn't affect you at all...Why would you stand in the way of other people's happiness when it doesn't affect you?
And the way this system is set up, gay people will never win. How can you take a minority cause, which doesn't affect anybody other than those within that minority, and put it up to a majority vote? It'll never pass. You think in 1860 if they had voted for abolishing slavery that it would've passed? You think the 1964 Civil Rights Act would've passed? There's no way! What's the point of making anti-discrimination laws, if you're just gonna let the ignorant majority overturn them at every corner? It just isn't fair.
And I hate it, because I'm part of that majority, being that I'm straight. But I don't go around hassling everybody who's different than me, making sure they aren't getting equal treatment. Maybe it's cuz I love gay people, and I consider many of them to be my friends. And I don't like having my friends pushed around and made to feel second-class. I don't want the love of my friends to be made to look any lesser than my love just because it's with a member of their own gender. Everyone should have the same rights and opportunities, if we're to be truly a free country. How can you be a prideful American, if you look at the fact that we have discrimination and injustice in our laws and keep our own citizens down? How can you feel so good about being free, if your fellow countrymen and women are having their rights taken away?
Which leads me to another question: Can rights really be RIGHTS if people can just TAKE THEM AWAY? And how do you come to the point where you feel so superior that you can make all the rights and privileges for yourself and people just like you and leave the rest of the people in the dust? How do you make a decision that affects millions of people when it doesn't concern you a damn bit? You aren't benefiting anyone by taking rights away from people, you're only perpetuating inequality and injustice and making life harder and harder for a lot of good-hearted people. But that's America these days.

Ok, I'm officially convinced that there is no god. And it's funny, cuz I was open to the idea but pretty iffy about it, cuz I could never really pinpoint exactly why I didn't believe in him all this time. People would ask me why and I'd just say something like "I wasn't taught to." Cuz I'm of the opinion that if I had been brought up in a religious family instead of a family that payed no mind to religion that I might have bought into it, cuz that's what happens to a lot of people I think. And they totally fooled me on Santa Claus and Tooth Fairy. And maybe that's why when I learned about the belief of god that I was skeptical. "Grown ups told you that?? You can't believe them, they fooled me on Santa, they aren't getting me again!"
And I still feel that way, but now I have a much better grasp of why it doesn't make any sense to me. Yes there's still the problem of nothing coming from nothing, and I have trouble with that still. I'm not saying I know where everything in the universe came from, and if you wanna brush up on that I'm not the person to ask, go read Stephen Hawking. You'd certainly get more out of it than listening to me. Or my philosophy professor, who is part of the reason I've become so sure there is no god. And it's funny, cuz it's all based on his arguments for there actually being one. His argument is that at no time in reality was there ever nothing in existence. Because nothing comes from nothing. So there has to have always been something in existence (which seems plausible enough, but then he LEAPS from that to) and that is god. But he adds, "for that to be true god would have to exist, have always existed, and always continue to exist. And he would have to be a perfect being, all-knowing, all-powerful. And he could not have had anything before him, because he always existed and is the root for all physicality in reality. Everything in the history of existence is traced back to him and is a cause of a cause of a cause of a cause (yada yada yada) all the way back until you get to god which is an UNCAUSED CAUSE. In other words, he is an UNMADE MAKER. ALWAYS EXISTED, and is PERFECT."
And that is why I am convinced that there is nothing like that in existence. Because how can there possibly be an UNCAUSED CAUSE? How can there be an UNMADE MAKER? Where did the maker come from? Oh, it always existed. HOW THE FUCK DOES SOMETHING ALWAYS EXIST?? How is that at all possible? And where does it get all these creative powers, and get to be all-knowing and put the clockwork of the universe together? And WHY?? It just doesn't make any sense. How can something always exist? How can it be an uncaused cause? That makes no sense.
I mean, I'm not saying I'm right and everybody is wrong, cuz I see it that way. Or cuz I can't understand the logic behind that argument, or that idea. An uncaused cause is in my opinion a CONTRADICTION. And in philosophy when something is seen as a contradiction it's immediately dismissed as false. But maybe I'm wrong, maybe it isn't a contradiction. Maybe it all makes sense, and I just can't see it. The best answer in philosophy is always "I don't know." But Voltaire always said "judge a man not by his answers, but by his questions." And as you can see, I have nothing but questions for the theist argument.

Stephanie, aka mariposacomplex tagged me for this, cuz I requested it. XD

Comment on this post & I will choose seven interests from your profile. you will then explain what they mean/why you are interested in them. post this along with your answers in your own journal so that others can play along.

1.) kevin smith films
I think if you look at me not being a fan of drugs, malls, lesbians, dick jokes, hockey, or comic books you wouldn't think I'd be so big on Kevin Smith films. But alas, I am. It started one night when there was nothing on, so I decided to watch "Chasing Amy" on HBO or something, and the first scene I remember had Jason Lee attacking a heckling fan of his and calling him a cock-knocker and I was just thoroughly entertained with that, and from there I was hooked. Soon after that I saw "Clerks" and fell in love with the comedy that is wrapped up in that movie, and everything else that Smith has done, with a few exceptions ("Jersey Girl" and "J&SBSB" I didn't like) has been reminiscent of that. Clerks is easily in the conversation for one of my top 5 favorite movies ever. And Randal Graves is easily one of my top favorite fictional characters ever. "Mallrats" which isn't one of Smith's better reviews films to say the least, I still really like, mostly because of Jason Lee's performance as another one of my favorite characters, Brodie Bruce. Chasing Amy is probably Smith's best film in terms of telling a compelling story and the performances he brings out of Ben Affleck, Lee again, and Joey Lauren Adams. Dogma I always liked if for no other reason than the sacreligiousness of it all. And "Clerks 2" I really liked, and is one of the better sequels I think have been made. I just really identify with a lot of Kevin Smith's comedy style, his sense of what's funny. And I don't care when he goes a little crazy and sticks in donkey shows or whatever. As long as it's funny. And it usually is.

2.) the cure
I was never huge into them, but I always appreciated their music. "Just Like Heaven" is like a perfect go-to song when you like or love someone and you want to convey how it feels to be around them. I always liked that one. "Lovesong" too, although it's much more of a long-term relationship song. "In Between Days" has been a favorite of mine for a while. However I always hated "Close to Me" because of Robert Smith's moaning and wailing in it. There's an acoustic version that's not so bad, though. "Lullaby" bores me to death, and "The Walk" is a COMPLETE rip off of "Blue Monday." Plus having become a much bigger fan of the Smiths, I always tend to think of the many barbs Morrissey has thrown Robert Smith's way when I hear the Cure. My favorite being "Robert Smith is a fat clown." He said that in 2002 I believe, so it was actually pretty accurate. Robert hasn't aged well.

3.) south park

What can I say about "South Park"? It's proven itself to be one of the most consistently brilliant shows in history, and Comedy Central owes all it's success to that little poorly animated show. It's been on for so long now, I mean I started watching it in 7th grade and I've never stopped. It was so cutting edge when it came out, and it's never slowed down, if anything it's only gotten more controversial. It isn't like "Family Guy" or other random shows that just do a bunch of raunchy jokes and see what they can get away with, South Park is up its own ass with messages, and conveys a lot of very libertarian views and taken big shots at everybody in politics, religion, and popular culture. And they've touched on every issue you can name, which is so rare in television these days. They have also come up with some of the great fictional characters ever. And the South Park movie is one of my favorite movies also.

4.) writing
Well if I ever had a calling, it was for writing. I've been told by just about every English teacher I've ever had that I have a definite knack for it. I don't know what I'd do to express myself if I couldn't write. I've always appreciated good, honest writing. I hate cryptic language that doesn't express everything it's supposed to. I don't care what you write about, just be honest about it, or else I won't bother with it. I really live for exciting, well worded verses. Whether they be in a book or magazine, or lines spoken in a play, television show, or film, or lyrics in a song. I live for that stuff, and I try to make my own contributions, as readers of this journal well know.

5.) yeah yeah yeahs
First time I head of the Yeah Yeah Yeahs was when I happened upon a concert of theirs on Showtime or something and I did not like what I saw at all. It was Karen O drinking water and eating grapes and spiting them out at people in the audience while the band played behind her. I was like "what kind of fucked up band does this?" So I turned it off and stayed away from them. Then one day a girl by the name of Natalie Kovacs made me a mix cd with the song "Y Control" on it, and it was really good. Nothing like what I remembered. And plus I heard a mashup online of them and the Cure which I really liked. So one day at a tiny used record store I found their album "Show Your Bones" and I decided to buy it. I can't say I like all the songs of theirs on it, some really show the edginess I found so repulsive at first glace, but there are three really really good songs on it, plus some other good ones. The three great songs are "Phenomena," "Cheated Hearts," and "Turn Into" which really got my attention when it was burned on a mix cd for me by Erin Noelle Bovard. Turn Into is now an all time favorite of mine, and I got their album "Fever to Tell" later on, but didn't like it as much. I haven't heard their latest one, though I'd like to some day. Still, whenever I'm notified that the Yeah Yeah Yeahs are playing in concert nearby I cringe.

6.) pet shop boys

My dad, of call people, got me into the Pet Shop Boys. It's ironic cuz he's not one for dance music, and that's basically the kind of music they do. But they write really good lyrics to go along with it. It's a bit like the Smiths, but danceable. Their covers of "Always On My Mind" and "Where the Streets Have No Name" are absolutely classic, and I prefer them over the originals by far.

7. scrubs
One of my favorite shows of all time. I've seen every episode multiple times. I only got into it cuz Comed Central started showing reruns of it on weeknights, and I didn't know a lot about it, but from the clips I saw of it it looked interesting...Okay, I saw clips of Sarah Chalke flashing her boobs at patients to make them feel better and I was like "Hell yeah, I'll watch that!" It was funny, cuz at the time I had a girlfriend named Ashley Feder, who was away at college. And I mentioned to her during a conversation that I was gonna get into Scrubs and she said "NO!! You can't get into Scrubs! Get into Grey's Anatomy instead, it's way better, and it's what I watch!" Not too long after that she broke up with me over the phone which was devastating, and in my resentment over that I decided to not just get into Scrubs, but get WAY into it, and to NEVER WATCH GREYS FUCKING STUPID ANATOMY EVER! And it was the right choice, cuz how can you go wrong with Scrubs? So many classic characters: JD, Dr. Cox, Janitor, Ted, the Todd, Jordan, and Dr. Kelso. Also guest star appearances of Brendan Fraser (who I never thought I'd like as much as I do when he was on that show) as Ben Sullivan, and Mandy Moore and Amy Smart and the countless other hot actresses who have played JD's exes. And as a show, it just has such amazing production value for such a simple little program. It can be really light and silly, or very heavy and serious, and there's always some kind of lesson or message that comes across every episode. It's a lot like the Simpsons that way I think. The way it has such range, and so many random characters who are so lovable. Dr. Cox is like my own personal hero, and I'd so love to be like him but I'll always be JD, a dreamer struggling to grow up in a fast-paced world.

Darling. I don't know how to tell you this, but there's a Chinese family in our bathroom.

This might surprise you, but I think I have myself a new favorite movie.
No disrespect whatsoever to Back to the Future, for it will always hold a very special place in my heart. Especially on my birthday. But the film "(500) Days of Summer" was too good, too lovely, too funny, too real, and altogether too perfect not to stand alone as the #1 favorite movie of mine.
It's not just that it starred Zooey Deschanel, my biggest celebrity crush and favorite actress/singer songwriter, as the title character. And not just cuz her love-interest is Joseph Gordon Levitt, who I've loved since he was a little boy who looked like a girl on 3rd Rock from the Sun. And not just cuz those two were already in an indie film together, which about nobody has seen, called "Manic" which was fucking brilliant and fantastic, although dark, edgy, and really heavy and therefore completely different from (500) Days of Summer. And not just cuz it's set in LA, and the protagonist dreams of becoming a big shot, but is stuck in a remedial job he fell into when he couldn't make a living doing what he really loves. Cuz how could I relate to that, right? :P
And it's not just because it's a great movie, which it is. Outside of all my bias, I would still give this a 9 or a 10 because of how great of a romantic comedy it really is. Every romantic comedy is the same, every love story is the same, with a few exceptions like "Once" that break all the rules and give you something you haven't seen before. Only with this movie, you get to actually see the characters in all the stages of a relationship, not just the falling for eachother and bonding part.
In the first 10 seconds, you know this isn't like any romantic comedy you've ever seen and that you're in for something special. It begins with an author's note, which acts as a bit of a disclaimer, which claims the story isn't based on anyone in real life, but then alludes otherwise in a hilariously bitter way, that I know I never saw coming, and probably nobody else saw coming either.
From there it jumps forward and backwards in time to crucial points in the story, which in an also brilliant opening narration informs us that this is a story about love, but it is NOT a love story. So from the very beginning you see the end of the relationship and glimpse of the fallout. You see much more of the fallout, and the plot as it continues for the protagonist, Tom, as he tries to set everything right and get the relationship back. It also jumps to him first meeting Summer, and how they went through the motions of being awkward around eachother initially and Tom thinking she wasn't interested, but then learning more and more about her and realizing how perfect for him she was and the plot really takes off from there.
And then even the moments that you know are gonna come, the "I like you" talk, the first kiss, their first night together, etc. never come when you really expect, which I find really great because usually with these type of movies it's always so predicable with that stuff. The first kiss is so random, and totally awkward, but in a good way. And the look Summer gives him afterwards is priceless. And the morning after she sleeps over (unexpectedly, of course) might be my favorite scene in the movie, and therefore easily one of my favorite scenes in history. It's a broadway style dance number, totally random and out of nowhere, but absolutely fabulous and hilarious, to the tune of Hall & Oates "You Make My Dreams Come True" where, of course it's a fantasy sequence, but after finally sleeping with the girl of his dreams, Tom is not just walking with his head held high, he is WHEELING AND DEALING his way downtown with the masses of passers by congratulating him and joining in the choreography. And you have him looking at his reflection and seeing Han Solo looking back at him, and an animated blue bird perching on his shoulder, it just had it all. And you ladies might not realize this, but after we sleep with you for the first time, especially if we've wanted to for a while, it feels EXACTLY like that.
Joseph Gordon Levitt's performance was just too good to really describe. He was phenomenal, and the whole story really revolved around him and his performance. But it had so many elements to go along with it, I mean Zooey is completely to die for, and you can really see why a guy like him would fall for her so hard, and that's very vital to the believability of the story. His friends are also really down to earth and supportive of him along the way, but at the same time like all friends they can go a little too far and be part of the problem, which happens. And the fact that his ten year old sister is his go-to when he needs advice or cheering up is so original and cute to watch, and the girl who plays the sister nearly steals the movie.
And, ya know, I won't go into all the stages of the movie, but I will say that it does go through all the highs and lows of relationships. At the high points it shows Tom as very hopeful and inspired in his job, which is working at a greeting card company. When he's in the throws of Summer's love, he's the go-to guy for the other employees on what to come up with for warm, happy sounding sentiments for cards. He comes up with a few different ideas, but the one that stuck out was "I Love Us" which I thought was pretty cute. Then, of course, after everything falls apart, he becomes completely disillusioned with such sentiments and resorts to writing cards like "Roses are red, violets are blue...Fuck you whore." And how at the start of everything, even before they start dating, Tom is this hopeful romantic, believing love is real and you just wake up one day and find someone and feel it, whereas Summer doesn't believe in love at all and is basically a commitophobe, then later on when they've been in and out of a relationship Tom's philosophy becomes that of Summers, not believing in love and seeing it as a bunch of BS, while Summer, who has completely moved on, becomes more hopeful and finally does believe in love. So it's like a total reversal. That was pretty neat.
There were also moments of random testimonials of the characters breaking the fourth wall and giving their real opinions on love and relationships, which you never see in movies. I thought that was really cool. And it wasn't just random, it served a purpose, cuz you got to see how the characters got to be where they are through their answers, which is why it's so significant when Tom is up and he just looks into the camera and doesn't say a word. Moments like that, where the characters didn't even need to speak, and the actors' expressions told you all you needed to know, those moments are so rare, and they are so remarkable.
Stuff like that, and also the quirky things Tom and Summer do together when they are together, like yelling penis randomly in public, going to museums to look at dog poo, going to IKEA and pretending they really live there...with everything else, the way it broke all the rules of romantic comedies and still ended up totally rewarding to the viewer, it all makes (500) Days of Summer stand alone, in my view, as the most creative, the most original, most realistic and best romantic comedy of all time BAR NONE.
So all and all it was a great great movie, and it deserves a lot of credit. But that's not why I loved it so much. I loved it as much as I did, because of all the little things that attracted my attention, that I was able to connect with. Things that if I were asked "what would you like to see happen in a movie?" I would've answered "something like THAT." Ya know, people singing karaoke, listening to the Smiths, referencing Joy Divison, stuff like that. And this movie does all that and more. During the opening credits and the opening narration, you see the main characters as children in a sort of old family home movies presentation, and you see them in their rooms with Smiths posters, and Morrissey postcards (which I've actually bought before) on their walls. And all throughout the movie Tom is wearing Joy Division shirts, including one that says "Love Will Tear Us Apart" which was also a slight forshadowing of what was to come. Summer's obsession with Ringo, for no other reason other than the fact that he's nobody's favorite Beatle really made me smile, not cuz I agree with her, but because it reminds me how Stephanie is always defending Ringo as not getting enough love. And the scene where Tom draws an architectural landscape on Summer's arm, which was so cute and for me it took me back to when a girl I like drew all over my arms. I know just how that feels, and that's awesome. And how the first real interaction between the two main characters, the beginning of them even connecting at all is when Tom is on the elevator listening to his headphones and the song is "There is a Light That Never Goes Out" by the Smiths, and Summer comes on with him and hears it and smiles a big smile and says "I love the Smiths!" and begins singing along "to die by your side is such a heavenly way to die" with a big smile on her face, that had me just jumping in my seat with glee. I've ALWAYS wanted to see that in a movie, I mean Zooey Deschanel singing one of my favorite songs, a song that sounds completely morbid but is absolutely wonderful and with a big gleaming smile on her face? I mean, that was such a rush for me. And the look on Tom's face after the encounter is over and she gets off is EXACTLY the look I would have. He even said exactly what I was thinking: "Oh my God." I was so excited for him, I actually yelled out loud to the screen "MARRY HER!"
To go along with my favorite band, the whole movie has a blue color scheme, which is my favorite color. It brings out Zooey's eyes so incredibly too. And the first time the two main characters actually hang out outside of work is at, where else, a karaoke bar. And they show Zooey sing, which is always nice, and Joseph Gordon Levitt sings a really impressive rendition of "Here Comes Your Man" by the Pixies. Perfect song for the situation too, that's always been a favorite of mine, when I'm crushing on somebody. He also sings "Train in Vain" much much later on in the film after the breakup, which strikes a chord with me also because that song is also a favorite of mine, especially when getting over someone.
The interaction between Tom and Summer after they've broken up and hang out as just friends, I also loved because it felt so real. the way they interacted, the things they talked about, like pointing out their respective flaws in a friendly manner, like " 'You snore' 'Yeah, well your feet stink' 'No they don't!' 'Yes they do!' 'Okay, that ONE time...' " That was just really a treat. And the way Tom voiceovers the things he loves about Summer while they are together, then when they're apart the goes over the things he hates about her, and they're all the same things. Just so much stuff I could relate to and identify with. It was everything I wanted out of a movie. I walked into it expecting it to be perfect for me based on what I already knew about it, and not only did it not disappoint, it went above and beyond my expectations.
For all those reasons, I've been just thinking about it and smiling and laughing since I saw it, and wanting to watch it again and again and again. And so I have to say that, all things considered, (500) Days of Summer is my new favorite movie.

So I got me a Zune, which I was able to afford thanks to my tax rebate check, and I couldn't be happier with it. I mean it actually is able to communicate and get along with my computer when it's plugged in! That's important, cuz my last mp3 player (which still works) and my computer did not get along. Also, other than it having twice the memory, it's also way better in terms of sound quality. There's like NO comparison with my other player. Way richer, clearer, LOUDER quality. Plus I like the SOCIAL feature which lets you share the music you're listening to with other Zune owners who you're friends with. So far I'm only friends with Stephanie, as she's the only one I know who owns one too, but I would like more friends so if anyone has a Zune too let me know or add me as a friend. My ID is "estrangedfriend."

Jennifer texted me a day or so after our big fight and apologized for being bitchy and hot-headed and said everything was a misunderstanding. I was happy to hear that, cuz I was certain when or if I heard from her again it would be more ugliness, cuz after the things she said and the things I said it wouldn't have surprised me if we just ended up hating eachother. And obviously, I didn't want that. But I was prepared for it.
I mean I was really riled by how she was treating me when we were exchanging words on LJ. To me, it felt almost exactly the same as I felt when Ashley Feder treated me a similar way, refusing to meet with me over Thanksgiving break back in '06, and then saying to me "I already dealt with it, I broke up with you." which was, by no accident, our last conversation. I felt the way I did then reading the comments by Jennifer the other day, and I really was just resigned to just hating eachother from now on.
But she did apologize, which is something Ashley Feder never had the courtesy or the sense to do. And I think, looking back at what we had, if she had apologized that I would have accepted it. I can't say for sure, but I think I would have. So when Jennifer apologized, I felt pretty glad, but I didn't know whether or not to respond, since everything that I did as a result of our fight was so permanent. Unfriending her on facebook and on here and everything. And since things were apparently too awkward and weird before for us to really get along or be friends, how's it gonna be now? I just don't think that's something worth getting into. And I talked to Stephanie about it and she said basically if she was gonna go all psycho and be all bitchy over nothing like that, then who's to say she won't do it again and who wants to deal with that? Which made sense. But at the same time, I overreacted a lot too and took stuff she said or didn't say really personally when it apparently really wasn't anything personal, so I didn't look at it like it was just all her fault or anything.
So I did end up responding, just saying that I really appreciated her apology and that we both pretty much overreacted. But I said I don't know if we can still be friends or anything like that, but atleast it's good and I'm glad that we don't have to hate eachother. And I think that's as concise and honest as I could've been. Cuz I'm not saying there's no way we can be friends, or that we're gonna be able to work everything out either, I said I don't know if we will and that's the truth. I don't know. And I might not know for a while, but I'm not gonna worry about it too much either way.

Anyway, I actually got to hang out with Aletheia for the first time in heaven knows how long. I was really happy to be able to see her again and just talk and have a good time. I tagged along with her and her dad to a screening of an old (and I mean olddddddd) silent movie that was shown outdoors at the Paramount Ranch in Agoura Hills which looks like a ranch from the old west. On the drive over Aletheia and I talked about our plans for the school year, and she said she's gonna work toward an Anthropology Degree and try and become a teacher, which sounds awesome to me cuz knowing Aletheia, she would be an excellent teacher, and I'm sure that's a field that she would find very fulfilling for her. She sat in the front seat while I was in the back, which made it kind of hard to talk, but we managed. I showed her my Zune and she thought it was cool and remarked at how small it was. It's like smaller than a playing card. When we got to the place I was happy to see that Aletheia can walk around without a cane, which I had not seen since the accident back on Halloween. She still favors the knee, and apparently always will due to some nerve damage, but it's nice to see her get around unaided.
It's kind of embarrassing to admit, but it had been so long that I kind of forgot how much fun it is to hang out with Aletheia. I had such a good time with her that night, just talking with her and her dad. There were tons of people at the event with us, and one of them was a family with a little boy who must have been around 6 or 7 I think, who was dressed in a Superman costume throwing around a baseball with his dad. I was amused by the fact that both he and his dad were left handed. Aletheia and I kept watching them, making jokes about him being Superman. I think she brought up the faster than a speeding bullet thing, and her dad quipped "As opposed to what, a slow lazy bullet?" To which I replied "Maybe a chambered bullet?" And we all sort of thought about it, and I raised my voice and said "FASTER THAN A CHAMBERED BULLET!" which got a good laugh out of both of them, which was awesome.
Aletheia's dad went off on the walking tour of the ranch with a group of people, and Aletheia and I got to walk around on our own, which was really nice. It really was a great thing for me to be reminded how nice it is to share some time with the best friend I ever had. I missed it all that time we didn't hang out. And we talked a bit about the shows and movies we've been getting into on our own, and that took us to all the movies we have yet to watch, that I've been dying to watch together for a while now. She's still interested, which is good, we just have to find the time.

Today was my first day of school for the fall, and I have to say I'm pretty happy with the two classes I'm in. My politics class is gonna be fun I think. It's about comparing different government institutions of different countries and cultures. How countries wind up with the kind of governments they have, all the changes they go through and what effects what. That's interesting to me, cuz you don't hear a lot about how different governments work really ever. And the professor seems really likable and knowledgeable. He also swears, which I find amusing in a professor. Anybody who knows what they're talking about on a intellectual, collegiate level and can use the F-word without biting their tongue is a person I'm gonna like. The books for the class were expensive though.
My philosophy class is HUGE. It's in the forum, and there's so many people that there were no empty seats and people were still sitting in the aisles. The professor of that class is a character too. He's from Chile, but he boasts "I've been in this country longer than all of you, so it's okay." He has an accent, but it's not too heavy. And he likes to make jokes and engage students in discussion, which is good. I just thought that it being a philosophy class that it would be more like an active groupwork involved type of learning experience, which I looked forward to, but being that it's in the forum and it's such a huge class, that's not gonna happen. I just hope it won't be all lecture cuz that will get old soooooo fast. Atleast the book is dirt cheap in that class.
I don't think I'm gonna make it to my ballroom dancing class, cuz I don't think I'll have the energy for it to stay in there. I mean I'm walking to school everyday, and am gonna be working everyday too. I just don't think I'll have the energy.

Last weekend consisted of awesome karaoke, labyrinth, and beach with the family. So yeah, can't wait to write about that. But I feel like I need pictures from the first two nights, which apparently haven't been uploaded yet. So I will save that entry until those get released.

Tonight was exciting though, cuz I was invited to an audition by a fellow improv friend from school, Nicole. I hadn't done an audition in a while, and the last time I really sucked cuz they made me do accents which I wasn't good at. But this time I was gonna SING too. Luckily I could pick whatever I wanted to sing. So I sang "Handsome Devil" and it got lulz from everyone watching cuz of the lyrics. They were pretty enthusiastic after the finish too, so I know I sang it well. Then they made me do a cold read from the script of the play I was auditioning for. I had to do an accent again for the first read, of the lead male character. But it was a southerner and I can do that well enough, so I didn't feel like a total idiot. Cold reads are really really hard, but I did my best. I thought I did alright. Then they had me read for a different part, instead of the protagonist it was of the antagonist - the BAD GUY. So I had to speak really loudly and mean like I'm starting some shit. I went into a Rowdy Roddy Piper like voice and it really got a response from everyone. They totally dug it. I REALLY want that part now! John Loprieno, who was my improv director years ago and I took an acting class with him last year, he walked in as I was reading and he said I was really good and told everyone "Bryan is a really funny guy." And I felt really good about how it went. The people were totally nice too, and I got to talk to Nicole for a little bit afterwards, which was good. She's really nice. I thanked her for inviting me to the thing. She said she'd definitely be in touch.
Yay, I really hope I get cast in a good part. I'll probably have to audition again if I get a call back. But it's pretty damn exciting. I'd SO love to play a bad guy in a play!!

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1. Why did you like my sweater so much when we first met?
I'm not 100% sure, since I don't exactly remember what it said. But I'm pretty sure it said some kind of a swear or something, and that's why I probably liked it. It was unique. Vulgar without being in poor taste. That's how everything oughta be. :)

2. What's your earliest memory of Morrissey?
I have a few very early memories of him, or rather hearing about him. I remember in an old Bad Religion video, their bassist talking about song lyrics and how important they are and he mentioned The Smiths and how Morrissey's lyrics were very morbid and depressing, but Johnny Marr's guitar was kind of happy sounding so it was okay to listen to. I always remembered that, though it never was a factor in my getting into The Smiths as that happened years later. I also remember years back, probably around the same time, early 2000's when my dad still had people working under him at the shop and he'd have his 200 cd changer going every day and I remember one of his employees named Skip complaining that he didn't like Morrissey because he came off as too gay. And another memory of Morrissey before ever getting into him was like in 2004 or 2005 when he was making his comeback and he was the talk of the town on local radio stations, and his cds were popping up everywhere and I remember seeing the Live at Earl's Court cd with a not so good picture of him on the front, and I remember asking myself "Man, I wonder what it would be like to be into somebody like that?" Which is pretty hilarious now, obviously. I mean, talk about irony. :P

3. What was it like having a sister growing up?
Well having a sister would have been challenging enough I think, but having one who was five years older, and much more extroverted and self-confident than I was just made it very difficult for me to engage any kind of commradory with her. I always look back on those days of growing up with her and just think we never got along, we were from two completely different worlds, different in just about every way possible. I mean, I was the shyest kid in the world, she was very outgoing and involved in extracurricular activities and had tons of friends and loved to go out on adventures where I just wanted to stay inside and draw or something. She was also very bossy at times, and knew she could blame me for stuff and get away with it. She was always a lot closer with my dad than I ever was and I was always much closer to my mom than she was. Just two completely different people. She was joke with me and make fun of me a lot, cuz I was always so uptight and cynical about everything and I guess that was her way of trying to get me out of my shell. But it only made it worse, cuz I was so sensitive I would take everything personally and really lash out at her and not want to be around her ever. I always look at around the time when mom was ripping the family apart and putting herself above the rest of us and stuff, that's when I think we really pulled together and started being there for eachother and getting along. And that wasn't until she was already moved out and going to UCLA and stuff. So it wasn't a very close kidship that we had until fairly recently. Although there are things that we would watch, like Saturday Night Live, the movie Clue, Star Wars, A League of Their Own, random stuff like that that I remember us bonding together with. And there's tons of pictures of her and I playing together as kids that I don't remember at all, but they're there. So we must've gotten along some of the time. I just don't remember it that much. Most of what I remember is being from totally different worlds and not getting along well until I was a teenager. Of course, now she's one of the most, if not the most important person in my life in terms of being supportive and inspirational. She really is everything that I want to be, and I respect her like no other for that. And I wouldn't be the person I am today if it weren't for her looking out for me...and not to mention kicking my ass every once in a while. (not literally)

4. How did you get into DBZ?
I had a friend in high school, well two actually. One named Patrick who I didn't like so much, and one named Jonathan who I thought the world of. Jonathan was always into DBZ and anime in general, but he never tried getting me into it. I was always preoccupied with pro wrestling, which was my big obsession for most of my childhood, and especially in those years. Jon didn't like wrestling, but Patrick did. It was Patrick who tried to get me into DBZ by making me watch an episode one day. Given that it was Patrick, who had the tendancy to be annoying and a jerk at times, I didn't want to get into it with his help. So I kind of turned my nose up and said it looked stupid and Vegeta's hair was ridiculous and looked like Jack Nicholson on steroids. But then I remembered that Jon was way into it, and if I asked him more about it, maybe I would like it. So I asked him about it and for the next month or so, everyday at lunch we would just talk DBZ. From the very beginning, all the stuff I had missed, to what saga was going on at the time and I became addicted to it too. We even drew comics based on it and those were the best times of all of high school for me really.
 
5. How was Labyrinth? Did you take pictures? :D
Labyrinth was pretty cool. It took them forever to start playing good music though. But when they did it got really fun. And they had the interpretive dancers that I like so much. I got a few compliments on my costume (which was atleast 10 times better than my halloween one) and requests to take my picture for people, and that was cool. All the compliments were from other guys though. :( Jennifer got pictures on her camera, but god knows when she'll upload them.

Oh my fucking god...I got halfway through typing out the entirety of my trip to Sacramento and was sooooooooooo excited and soooooooooo proud of it and then what happens? Computer freezes and I restart and press the little [restore saved draft?] button and all it brings up is a blank fucking page. GODDAMNIT!!!!

I'm not fucking typing it all up again. Fuck you computer. Fuck you livejournal.

The youth is starting to change. Are you starting to change? Are you together together together?

Meme I stole from random white chick. :P

Starting time: 11:38AM
Name: Parthenon Huxley
Sisters: 1
Brothers: 0
Shoe size: US 10.5
Height: 6"0

Where do you live: Kraproom
Favourite drinks: Chocolate milk, cherry coke
Favourite breakfast: Cinnimon Toast
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yes and made many stops.
Swam in the ocean: Yes, often a bit too far .
Fallen asleep at school: Not that I can recall.
Broken someone's heart: Never intentionally, and if I did the person never told me I did. I'm usually on the other end.
Fell off your chair: Yes many times.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Yeah I guess.
Saved e-mails: Yeah
What is your room like: Posters, books, bed, DVDs, Elvis lamp.
What's right beside you: the dog and the trashcan.
What was the last thing you ate: cereal and a multivitamin.
Ever had chicken pox: Yes
Sore throat: Lots
Stitches: Nope.
Broken nose: No broken bones.

Do you believe in love at first sight: Yes I'm sure that it happens all the time (THAT'S A RINGO SONG!)
Like picnics: As long as there aren't any bees or ants.
Who was/were the last person/people you danced with: Bryan
You last yelled at: I don't really yell in real life. Probably at my cousins over facebook for liking the Lakers.

Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: Not directly, but I did get texts from two of my cousins. :)
Kiss anyone: Nope.
Get sick: No
Talk to an ex: Nope
Miss someone: Yes, several people.
Eat: Yes

Best feeling in the world: Do you really want to know the answer to that question? >:)
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Any man that does needs therapy.
What's under your bed: I'm not sure, and honestly I don't really care to find out.
Who do you really hate: Everything...No I dunno, people without empathy I guess. People without imagination too.
What time is it now: 11:52AM

Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now: I don't know if there's ever a time when there isn't in one way or another.
Do you have any siblings: Yes. And I do love them even if they'd rather disown me over not liking the same basketball team.
Do you want children: I seem to have a knack for dealing with them, and I do love naming things. So why not?
Do you smile often: I try not to.
Do you like your hand-writing: Not really. It's not as bad as it was when I was in school though. 
Are your toe nails painted: Lord no.
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: My sisters. I used to sneak naps in there when I'd babysit Jason. Good times.
What color shirt are you wearing now: I'd have to put one on...
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: Eating burritos.
Are you a friendly person: I really try to be. But at the bottom of everything I'm quite shy and would more than often than not like to be left alone.
Do you have any pets: I live with one, though I don't claim ownership over it.
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: Quite so, yes.
Do you sleep with the TV on?: No, no. Sometimes I'll get comfortable with it on and fall asleep before turning it off, but it's always by accident.
What are you doing right now?: Eating cheese!
Have you ever crawled through a window?: Yes. I've even jumped off a balcony.
Can you handle the truth?: Yeah, shoot.
Are you too forgiving?: Oh dear, no.
Are you closer to your mother or father?: Father, by default really.
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: My girlfriend I suppose.
Do you eat healthy?: Given the fact that I eat no vegetables and lots of carbs and meat I'd probably say no...But I have been trying not to eat as badly.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: No. A little ritual I have, after being broken up with I go and throw away all of them and everything like that.
Are you confident?: At certain things.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1. Wondering about Y2K...Yes I'm old!
2. Failing math miserably in my first year of algebra. 
3. Wondering if I'll ever grow above 5 feet.
4. Watching lots and lots of wrestling (that was the golden age I tell you)
5. Hanging out with my one and only friend, Jon.


5 things on my to-do list today:
1. Call Vons Payroll for a W-2 form resend (did that.)
2. Clean out the truck for tomorrow's drive.
3. Get dressed.
4. Wash some clothes to take up North.
5. Go to the movies.

5 snacks I enjoy:
1. Poptarts
2. soft baked cookies
3. Sunkist fruit snacks
4. Skittles
5. Reeses Peanut Butter Cups

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Move out on my own to a deluxe apartment in the sky.
2. Buy a new car or two with the best sound system money can buy.
3. Start my own record company Way To Be Productions and try my luck at being a record producer.
4. Travel to every country in the fucking world.
5. But about a million things on eBay.

5 of my bad habits:
1. Nailbiting
2. Procrastination
3. Restless leg
4.  Saying "uh" "um" and "ya know" in casual speech a lot.
5. Fiddling with whatever's in my hands.

5 places I have lived in: (I'll count the different houses I've stayed in since I've not lived in lots of countries or anything)
1. Newbury Park, CA
2. Moorpark, CA
3. That's it
4. That's the list
5. Period

5 jobs I've had:
1. Babysitter
2. Pharmacy clerk at Longs Drugs
3. Mohammad's errand boy at Wendy Auto
4. Checker at Vons
5. Machinist

Since last weeks plan fell through, I'm rallying the troops (what troops?) and trying to make plans for this sunday for a party for my belated birthday probably in the afternoon. We'll share some pizza, probably watch Back to the Future. Maybe about 1ish? Who's available?

Too many years, fighting back tears, why can't the past just die? Wishing you were somehow here again, knowing we must say goodbye. Try to forgive, teach me to live. Give me the strength to try...



It seems almost as if there's too much to say about my trip to Florida, and I've really tried to sit down and pour it all out, but I haven't found the ability yet. I'm really really sorry (to those of you who give a shit.) But anyway, I just wanna say that I really hope I die before I have to go to another funeral like that. It sounds weird, and even a little selfish, but I just hate seeing the people I love suffering. And they were suffering over Mindy a lot. And a lot of them still are. I felt like an asshole a lot of the time cuz everything that was said about Mindy, stuff I didn't ever know, xuz I didn't care enough to know, made it seem like she was actually the kind of person who I would really get along with. And that made me sad. Michael Crawford was her favorite singer and they played the song "Wishing You Were Somehow Here Again" at the funeral, and it fit the mood so perfectly that I actually said out loud "A little on the nose, don't you think?" And yeah, I did cry. But I didn't let anyone take notice of it. I'm not sure why.

Anyway, my birthday has also passed, but a party has not. And I was wondering if anyone is available this Saturday for bowling or something? I really think that might be more fun than just hanging out at my place for several hours. And my dad won't have to bitch about people being over and making noise and whatnot. It's just an idea tho, I don't even know if we can reserve a lane on a Saturday since I'm sure there's leagues and stuff that play around that time. But if it sounds like a good idea, I'll try looking into it. Simi Valley Bowl. Saturday. Who's interested?

 Yesterday, March 20, 2009 we had another death in the family. This time it wasn't an grandparent or elder aunt or uncle. This time it was somebody who had way too many years ahead of them. This person was only a couple generations ahead of me. This person would have turned 35 next month.
We lost my cousin Mindy, who had an accident at Disneyworld where she worked and died hours later alone in her apartment. She was found by her mother/my aunt Diane and her niece/my second cousin Kirsten who only just turned 17 last week.
When I heard the news I was absolutely shocked. I mean, none of my aunts or uncles have died yet, so of course I wasn't expecting to hear that one of my cousins had perished. I can't say I was close to Mindy, she was in the first class of cousins that comprised of her, her brother John, and our cousin Josh. My sister was in the next class and was pretty close with Mindy, especially while she was living with our Grandpa Bob in Simi and going to Moorpark College. She was the first person I knew who ever went there.
Like I said, I wasn't close with her, but I remember a lot about her. I remember when we came to visit her and her family in Florida two years ago and she got to meet Jason for the first time and she was so affectionate and warm with him, I was really surprised because she never seemed like much of an affectionate person. I actually vividly recall her turning up her nose at a couple who were kissing in public because she "hated PDAs." That's actually how I found out what PDAs are. I remember her squiring us around Orlando, most specifically Epcot Center. I remember her saying that Epcot stands for Every Paycheck Comes On Tuesday, which was like a Disneyworld inside joke. I remember her randomly bringing me a mickey mouse basketball t-shirt when she visited us when I was 18. I still have that shirt, though my dad wears it more than I do nowadays. I remember being the only cousin to take her up on her offer to go to Disneyland while she was here. It was the real only time I spent a long amount of time with her. Most of all from that day I remember while we were in line for the Matterhorn she shared with me her theory that you can't go a single day without seeing or hearing a Wizard of Oz reference. I was quick to denounce her theory as nonsense and something that may hold water in her own wacky mind. But from that day on it seemed painfully accurate as almost every day I do see or hear a Wizard of Oz reference. And I would always have a fit and say "my day is ruined!" The thing I hated most about that was that whenever it would happen it would be a reminder of Mindy and would prove her case all the more. I called it "The Mindy Curse."
I feel like now, with her tragic passing, that the curse will cease being a curse. I won't look at Wizard of Oz references with distain anymore. I saw one last night watching tv in bed, in a scenario that Mindy herself could've and did predict when she told me her theory. A random 3rd Rock episode, a random costume party, and wouldn't you know it one of the characters is dressed up as Dorothy. Right again, Mindy.
I can't say I particularly liked her. I grew up with everyone around me talking about how self-centered and annoyingly talkative she was. Which she was. But if that's the worst you can say about someone, they must not be too bad of a person. And she wasn't. We just tend to focus on the quirkier things about the ones we love instead of the nicer things. I wish I could've focused more on those things while she was still alive. Maybe we would've gotten along better. I would've liked that.
I can't shake the feeling that she died with a rather low opinion of me. Since Grandpa's 80th birthday when Diane told me that Mindy googled me and found my journal and read the bad things I wrote about her. I felt embarrassed and kind of ashamed, even though I don't think I wrote anything mean-spirited or callous about her. I certainly didn't intend for anybody in the family to read it, I wasn't out to hurt anyone's feelings and I'm sorry that her feelings were hurt and that she took it so personally and held it against me and refused to acknowledge me existence henceforth. But I can't change any of that. I can only focus on the good things and remember her for her kindness and her bright spirit. And I hope that in some parallel universe that I get the chance and the heart to make peace with her before she goes. I certainly didn't in this world.

Ian Curtis by ~KnightSavtrian on deviantART

My cousin Stephanie made this drawing of Ian Curtis, and I thought it was so awesome I decided to share it here on LJ. Isn't it awesome?!

Her livejournal is so sad.

David, we wonder...we wonder if the thunder is ever reallt gonna begin...

Today is my cousin David's birthday. Everyone wish him a happy birthday, he's a good man.

So I haven't been updating much...Haven't had time really...And I've been pretty happy with life, so that tends to make livejournal an afterthought. Everybody knows that you only update LJ when you're pissed or confused or depressed about something so you can vent and possibly find answers. When you're happy with life, for some reason, you don't feel so compelled to share.
Which is unfortunate, because I know for a fact that the people who read your journal are just as interested in hearing the good things in your life as well as the not so good. And they're being cheated!!
Anyway, I hope all who read this are finding their way through the blinking lights. I, of course, am always having my own struggles, my own battles upstairs between what I should be doing and what I actually produce. It's a sad thing when you're smart enough to know the correct way to behave in certain situations, but your own insanity keeps you from following those blueprints. It takes a lot of patience and a lot of humility. I'm just too narcissistic sometimes. But I'm working on it!!

Anyway, I have a lot of things to say to a lot of people very close to me. I'm planning on trying to write it all out and send them to everyone in letter form for the holidays. And it may not all be flowery, warm, positive things, but it will all be very insightful and thoughtful, showing that although we may not see or speak to eachother very often, for whatever reason, but they are always in my thoughts, which is quite a bit life affirming, I think.

Anyway...soon my life will be consumed with my job at the machine shop. It's not too bad, I'm getting better at it. Though some days are definitely better than others. Time goes by pretty quickly though. There's so much more math and work with numbers than I expected. You definitely can't be stupid and do this job. Though, now that I'm getting into a groove, my mind tends to wonder like it did with my grocery store job. My daily thoughts breakdown something like this:
30% on the job I'm doing.
25% on my girlfriend Jennifer.
16% on random Scrubs episodes.
14% on music.
6% on random movies and other tv shows.
5% on various friends and family.
4% on food.

And it varies with what's fresh in my mind, obviously, but I think that's pretty accurate. I don't know why I think of Scrubs as much as I do, but I just can't help it. I used to think of it as much, if not more, when I worked at Vons...Weird.

And now here's a music meme I stole from Stephanie...
( Songs and stuff... )

Lyrics Meme
1. Put your music player on shuffle/random.

2. The first lines of twenty songs = a poem; The first line of the twenty-first song is the title.

We Can Reach the Sea

Hanging out down the street,
Time to burn it all away,
In my dreams I see those two,
It's so clear now I'm understanding,
Give me fuel, give me fire, give me double genocide.

Don't wanna chill, don't wanna sit,
Good times for a change,
I'm stuck, out of luck,
You can't see the demons,
How sad are we and how sad have we been?

By a lonely prison wall I heard a young girl calling,
My sweet lord,
I'm the next act waiting in the wings,
Sketching your faces, I still don't know you aren't permanent,
Farther leads to you.

When they kick at your front door,
Friday mourning I'm dressed in black,
Give me love, give me love, give me peace on earth,
Ground Control to Major Tom,
Concentrate you on the middle of this one way ride.

That was fun. Though it didn't come out quite as smoothly as I'd like, and most people won't know any of the songs any of them are from. Btw, I stole it from the margyyfish.

So my internet was down completely the last week. Such a long week it was too! I do have stuff to update about, but I'll do it tomorrow while I'm waiting for the AT&T technician to come and look at the DSL line and why it insists on completely sucking.
I did want to say that things are going a lot better now than the last time I updated. Jennifer and I are getting along great, I assure you. She never writes about us in her journal, so I feel the need to clear that up. We still bicker like any other couple, but I really feel like our relationship is starting to cruise. Cuz it was like, first it was just seeing what happens and getting to know eachother, then really liking eachother and having the honeymoon period where everything is fresh and exciting, then came the slump where there was friction and discourse, and now we've settled into a good comfortable spot where we're just happy.

Xmas is coming up. I really want a cat. I can hear the rats/mice scratching around and it's really creeping me out. I think they're regrouping, ready to make their way back down to the living quarters again. We need a damn enforcer to keep them out!
Other than that I want various cds and dvds. I'm actually going to make a list this year. The last few years I've been too emo and depressed to make a list cuz I was like "let's see people THINK to get me something, so I'll see how much they understand me and care!" I'm done with that attitude, and I'm not gonna let holidays get me down this year. Every Thanksgiving makes me moody cuz of when I was dumped right before thanksgiving 06, and then it's the same with every xmas cuz I was dumped right after xmas 05, and then 06 was when I literally fucked up one of my best friendships. But that's not gonna drag me down this year. It already made me moody enough already, which is why i was all nurrrrr on my last post. But I think I'm out in the clear about that now, and not allowing that shit to bother me.

Life is very short, and there's no time for fussing and fighting, my friend.

Yesterday's calendar read: "Most people take life much too seriously and worry about all the wrong things: security, advancement, prosperity, all the things that give you heartburn. I think people would be better off if they relaxed and had a little more fun."
It seems obvious and over-practical maybe, but it's true. Life is too short to be worried and afraid all the time. When are you gonna get out there and fucking live?? I'm sick and tired of people who dwell on the negative things in the world and then look down at me for shrugging stuff off. I shrug it off because there's no benefit in getting tied up in things that make you go "eww" or "nurrr." I'm not disregarding those feelings, I'm just more concerned with things that will do good and make life worth living.
Yesterday was Thanksgiving, and I was thankful for two things. One was my family, because those of us who are here and happy together sharing everything having great times together, that's what life is all about. And I'd be lost without them. The second thing was my relationship with Jennifer. Even tho it's certainly not perfect, and drives me crazy sometimes, I'm still happy to be part of it.
Of course, I tried telling this to Jennifer but she didn't acknowledge it and that sent me into a pretty bad mood.

Deliver me from reasons why you'd rather cry, I'd rather fly.

I have too much to say. Everything is changing. I'm sorry I haven't been updating. I wanted to get going with updating tonight while there's still time, but I'm really tired and I have to get up tomorrow morning and spend all day working for my dad. And apparently that's what I'm going to be doing every day for a long long time. So if I don't see you, you know I haven't slipped off the face of the Earth.
I'm going to try and edit this entry with all the stuff I need to talk about whenever I get the time. I just don't know when that'll be, and I don't want to just not enter anything. Especially when I'm so full of things to say. Oh well, they might come off as totally negative anyway. I'll definitely try to come back and put up some stuff that's substantial.

I'm not used to sharing essays on here, and I don't even know if it's gonna work cuz it's pretty long and LJ has a stupid limit on entries, but I thought maybe people would find this interesting so I decided to try and share it.

( The Anonymous Fight )